Once upon a time...

Every good story book starts with "Once upon a time..." or at least something to that effect. We exist inside of time, restricted by the moment and living here and now. Looking ahead is mere conjecture. Looking behind, reminiscing. Here is where we exist. Here can be a place full of love, joy and peace. By peace, I mean the peace that moves beyond the situation to the place where there is faith that the resolution will be the best possible. I strive toward that place. That place where there is no past, everything washed away. That place where there is no care for the future. The place where the moment is so filled with love that there is no where else I would rather be. I see my past and wish I had chosen differently, but realize that it is key to who I am. Who am I? Well, once upon a time... I met Jesus, and nothing has been the same.

Refalling in love

A relationship is a complicated thing. There are ebbs and flows to communication and conversation. Some days are on and others just feel a little off. However, at the end of the day the Love is always there. It may just be a matter of refinding it.

Over the last several months I feel as if I have been in the "a little off" area with God. I pray, I give, I do all of the things a good Christian is supposed to do, and yet there is something that seemed to be lacking. I would go through the motions... And that was it, going through the motions. It was as if all of the things I was supposed to do held no meaning any more. My heart began to search. To quote Paul in his letter to the Romans, "I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do." I can honestly say that this is how I had been feeling (note the tense of it all).

It was this week that things changed. I don't know what happened, or how to explain it but things have changed. I am more over worked and stressed out than ever, but I have something on the inside that is renewed. I have refound the love for the Creator of the heavens and the earth that I seemed to have lost for a brief time... I am refalling in love.